I am depressed and numb over a guy i think i may have loved. please read this if you have advice?

Question by : I am depressed and numb over a guy i think i may have loved. please read this if you have advice?
So without going into too much of details, I met someone and he had a girlfriend for one year when we met. I didnt think anything would happen with us, so I didnt mind that he had just gotten out of a relationship. I ended up falling hard. Ive hooked up with countless guys, never have I felt this way. Its funny because before I met him, I CLEARLY remember thinking to myself i have never cried over a guy before. I used to always think i could never have a serious boyfriend because I wouldnt remain faithful, im that kind of girl: the flirt. And no guy ever made me feel like he was the only one that mattered. I have NO urge to even look at another guy. I only knew him for a little more than one month, and I know it sounds very soon, but we were together almost all the time and when we werent, we were always talking. I lost my virginity to him, I had to take plan b and i even got a uti because of him. He knew he was my first, and after we had sex for the first time we were at a gathering and he pulled me away from everyone and grabbed my face looked into my eyes and told me “its going to sound crazy but i think im begininning to fall in love with you”. No boy has ever even close to saying that to me and I honestly had this constant feeling i would melt in his presence. He is not the hottest guy ive been with, or the smartest, or the funniest, but something about him drew me to him like light to a fly. Well, all of a sudden one day I get a message from him saying hes not ready to be boyfriend girlfriend, because he doesnt think its fair to me because he isnt completely over his ex, but assured me that he has had no contact with her and that this is so “we” can work. I was upset and there were so many signs, but I ignored them and after every mistake/asshole thing he did, I forgave him because i couldnt bear not having him. After that, slowly, he stopped texting/calling me as much and when the weekend rolled around he ditched me for his friends. Take into consideration he ALWAYS wanted to be with me and had so much effort into me and then all of a sudden he stopped. I confronted him and he sort of just beat around the bush and i pushed it to the side and let it go. I began being the one to text him and call him first and ask him to hangout. Well finally I confronted him again and he told me he was “confused because he started to talking to his ex again” then all of a sudden he said maybe we shouldnt keep hanging out i think i want her back. What the hell. You cant go from telling a girl your falling in love with her, to completely tossing her to the side. I have never fallen for someone and i have never been dumped. Im the one who dumps guys or if anything its mutual and it doesnt bother me. I havent talked to him in 5 days and i know he isnt going to talk to me. I dont know what to do. The way our conversation ended was that its over and “we” are not ever happening again. He loves his ex. period. Well back to my previous statement of “i never have cried over a guy”, guess again…I bawl at the site of anything. I want to text him so bad right now and just say “i want you back” but it wont matter, he CHOSE HER. not me.

Thank you for reading this haha I know i sound like a drama queen. This is all so new to me and I honestly feel numb inside and i havent been able to focus on school, or my friends, or anything. Thank you.

Best answer:

Answer by Acckmed
It is part of life……. Might as well move on.

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